The results

To begin with, last night was a terrible night. Barely slept as the neck and spinal pain was intorable. Finally, pop a pill and slept at morning before going to Neuro surgeon for the results. Supposedly to be tomorrow but decided to swop as the pain was intense. So tomorrow will be the body checkup.

In the morning was really despaired and was questioning when will my rejoicing come. Didn't want to read bible or pray. But somehow was reminded by Job, he sang praises to the Lord despite the misery he was thru. Dear dear encouraged me that for 3 mths he had bear with the agony of presenting to VP but today he didn't need to present. He asked if this is a miracle and i can't deny it is as God knows he needs a break. So he encourages me that my time will come. I understand what he meant but in my heart i was still in despair.

Journey to the neuro surgeon was an aimless one. No more feeling so begun to read the 'heavenly man' book. God never fails to encourage. Indeed, what i m going thru is so little as compared to those who share God's words with their blood and suffering.

Met Dr Lee and he reviewed the scan results and congratulate me as the the brain cyst has shown no sign of in size and appearance. Thkful for this as tis been i can close the chapter of this cycst in my life. My recent insurance application did not go thru becos of this. They do not want to take this risk to accept me.

As for the cervical spine MRI, the spinal alignment is still perserved but loss of normal cervical lordosis. Early disc desiccation is seen but is still alright. In sum, i need to take supplement to replenish the loss of sort of lubricant for the cervical. I was given omega 3 supplements and tonnes of other medication & supplemts. Bascially is for easing the pain as well as to increase the blood circulation and oxygen to the brain (and that wld include vit d & c etc). Dr Lee doesn't like pple to be on antidepressants as no gd. I am always fascinated by human brain.

Dear dear was thrilled at the findings while i was indifferent. For me, i was troubled becos i was not working and was using a lot of $$ on medication and checkups. But dear dear assured me that health is impt than anything. He posed me the same qn if Toby is lost will you give a $3000 reward; how $5000; how abt $10k. I understand what he is driving at but again is big $ spent this time. Past few nights had been sharing to God my concerns. I know we hv money to pay off these medical bills but i just feel very bad that I hv to use dear dear hard earned money on me. If only I hv $ to pay off these bills but how i am not working.

But God showered His grace on us. To me, this is a miracle and like to testify God's power and goodness. Indeed nothing is impossible. When we opened our mail this evening, we saw the restructuring shares allocated to us. This year, it is automatically transferred to our bank account. Previous yrs you hv the option to carry forward but this year no. And when we totalled up ours, that's the amt we needed to cover for my full medical bills! I was totally thrilled and in my heart kept thking God and so happy that just sang to Him. How shld i put it, this comes at the right time. I always read that God provides his pple needs like sending $ fr a stranger to the person in need but i can never comprehend with that. But now i can.

The other day when Pam shared she didn't know what God has for the sick, neither do I. But as days go by, i love and cherish my life with God and loved ones more. Better able to comprehend with others' sufferings and downs they are going thru.

Really thk God. This gives me strength to move on another step. Prayfully by God's grace my body check up results are going to be ok.